Its like opening up a door to your home of 17 years and realized… its empty. Dear lord, I didn’t put much furniture in did I? not that I forgotten or that I’m cheap. It just goes un-noticed as time flies by, as you pass time, lying to urself that ur this modern simplistic urban yuppy inhibitor, and that only gets what's required; functional to ur well being. And here I am, not failing to look at my own blog at a few days apart at worst, when I’m busy with things, and wud u look at that… 2 months passes by without any new entry. What a lazy bum I prove to be. Shame on me, especially now that I’ve gotten actual readers. Time flies when ur passing time. Especially when ur the passenger in ur on life, and not being the driver. Whose the driver? Well no one- and that’s why a blog remains empty, even when the protagonist (
i hope i spelled that rite) poke his head in couple of times in a week just to ...well see if everything’s ok. Mundane is the keyword.
Well it’s the first week of the fasting month, and hey I’m fasting my way through it. It almost amazes me when people actually could doubt other people( that means yours truly) on their(read: my) ability or statement of fasting. Its too simple a task that, tht it shouldn’t be doubted to begin with. For as long as I remember, I’ve always gotten a full month worth of fasting from the age of.. of.. well a very young age. too young to remember when. Why wouldn’t anyone be able to do this? Aside from actual medical condition, I don’t see why anyone couldn’t fast at all. I mean what planet wimp did you come from, for not being able starve for a mere 12 hours? Hell I could do that even without sahur- which I did yesterday and for most of the month when I was in the boarding school- only ate when they’re serving chicken, otherwise its not worth to wake up in the wee hours. But then again this is from my perspective. And I guess as there’s always a counter perspective that disagree with my opinion in practice, whose with patience and perseverance should be able to fast anyway, no doubt about it. Our bodies are design to endure more than 12 hours of food and water depravation.
The hard part of this fasting business is to actually living the principles of the ibadah, so to speak. It’s not all about not eating and not drinking. there's the logic, and the appreciation of it, the penghayatan stuffs and of course the purpose of it all, of course.. and of course then there’s a whole other dont-do-lists of controlling your physical and mental desires from food, to sexual inclinations, to gossip etc. eating is one thing, but the rest requires a lot more efforts, especially if ur young and working in places where pretty little things come hopping around occasionally. And of course the gossip. Caught myself the other day telling about my boss bad deeds to another collegue, behind his back of course. I should be more quieter in this month. To preserve water content and all. ;p slamat berbuka!